So in the frame of mind … a lot of people use in differing ways… kinda tired and enough is enough. Them folk are being left in the rear view mirror. Effort where effort is due. Have only taken to my age of 40 years to come to this realisation.
I’m strangely optimistic at the moment even though I’ve faced rejection and messing about. But not anymore. ☺️
So investing a little effort and time in sprucing and selling my cv and applying for multiple jobs, all fingers crossed for 🤞approx 5-6 so far. Just need a little positive response to buoy me up a slight.
so any way new cooker is here but not installed. Spent time with my dad. Had a nice indoor meal. Out for another meal Saturday (friends 40th) that’s at pizza express and also Monday it’s our 18th wedding anniversary so it’s cosy romantic day together, plus meal in the evening.
I feel like I want to be a little aloof and awol on social media. Take a hiatus. I’ll reply messenger and check emails for the jobs stuff but that’s it for a while. Certain folk on the fb and insta stratosphere are fucking me off quite frankly.
I’m doing my best not to spend money. Somehow limping through the month on pennies. Finances need an absolute overhaul. Hence searching new job. I haven’t gambled now for a whole month. Shut all that out my life. Hubby still spends a fortune on booze. Don’t seem there’s much I can do about that. Well I won’t drink. I can do that. Won’t drink with him until changes made. Saving money is hard when so much goes on beer every single day. 6/7 pints a day. No nagging from me either. Seem to be one of them exhausted pathetic wives these days that allows it.
Hoping and wishing for change. I’m dissatisfied and itching for something to amaze me, take my mind elsewhere. Spark my interest and ignite my soul. But don’t we all???
But yes there’s things in the pipeline. Plant seeds and see if they grow. 🤔
Then I’m doing a glow up of an area in the garden.
And now look. ⬇️⬇️⬇️
It needs more work, but I can definitely enjoy this little sun trap spot with an espresso ☕️ 😄 The cat has already shown interest. It is still a bit stig of the dump, but considering spent zero £ and anything house or garden improvement is solely done by me it’s quite good. Hubby isn’t involved or remotely interested in diy or anything like that. 🙄
I’m doing ok today. Prob not good diet wise but I deserve a treat or two, so it’s a Chinese takeaway for us tonight! I feel like some progress has been made this week and a lot of things making me fear covid a lot less.
Getting out more, visiting different places, just being back at work etc. Driving lots of miles again and doing the mundane routine means Normality!!! Wooo who’d think that was something I’d crave?! It’s also a bank holiday so three days off with the family to make some memories and looking out for our well-being.
People around seem happy. Trying to please the kids to improve their mood, encourage them to be more confident with post lockdown life. Re-engage the social lives. I think my 17 year old son will be harder work. I also nudging him gently in direction of a part time job isn’t a bad idea for a few quid.
My weekend goals are to see some bluebells. Get on my rusty bike (that means check tyres n brakes)
also strip paint of stair banister to reseal and regloss. Oh and totally bleach clean the shower as there’s mould ughhhh
What a riveting entry haha. I noticed I have some reader traffic, the odd comment and likes. Well hello thank you and how are you? May your weekend be blessed.
a little meme thing for fun?… I’m a Scorpio ♏️ what are you? Trust me to be murderous 😂